Immature Me

They say the cause of this pain is my maturity,

or the lack of.

What they don't understand is that I'm ONLY 14.

I have plenty of time, I'm not ready to grow up just yet.

All the other teens cant wait to be 18.

I can.

i just want to live my teen life as a teen living life.

I dread the day i have to all of a sudden be an "adult".

I dread having all the responsibility on me.

I can definitely wait to be able to do what i want,

if it means giving up living the way i live.

An adult means bills, and a job to pay them.

 It means spending less days so carefree,

and more worrying about taxes,

and my children,

and the phone bill.

It means balancing EVERYTHING

and still try to have time for me,

without having much success.

being an adult brings more worries

 and more responsibility.

I can barely handle the responsibilities I have NOW!!

but i guess thats my immaturity speaking.

we all have to grow up sometime.

But growing up now looks like no fun at all.

i think ill just deal with the pain.

Its just another thing to procrastinate.

For now I'm just living life day by day,

being the only thing I can be.

14 year old, immature me.